My name is Brianna. I am often known as the grief girl. I lost my first child Joshua Allen Ferry in 2017. He was a gorgeous 5 month old baby and I dropped him off one day so I could go to work ( I was active duty army at the time), with someone who at the time I trusted to be a loving caregiver, and a fellow mama. To our Horror, he suffocated during a nap at the babysitters house due to  negligence and extreme disregard to unsafe sleeping practices. MY Joshua had brain swelling that ultimately made him lose his life.

Fast forward a few years later came my sweet Lucian Gabriel-Bennett our youngest child. Went to sleep and never woke up in our home. We still don't have the answers to WHY? I am faced with this burden everyday. Every day since has been a nightmare. I have faced every emotion you can possibly think of and in spite of it all I'm here to tell you there is HOPE and there is still a place for LOVE and JOY. Do you see why I'm the Grief Girl? Every day I wake up and I can still see the smile on Lucian's small baby face. The tiny baby toes, both of their stunning ocean blue eyes. I can hear Joshuas laugh as he crawled through the house on his chunky thighs. And those big chunky cheeks!